Monthly Archives: July 2011

Wandering Minds

Life can get tiring quickly, and boring easily; even in the summer. With plenty of time in between high school and college, I had a few things planned out to keep me occupied. June was a busy month, infested with multiple trips with friends and family, but now that July has hit I’m struck with boredom. Most days I dread going to work, but recently I’ve realized what a blessing it really can be. I don’t know if anyone reading this feels the same way as I, but when I’m at home alone, I can’t keep my mind busy for long enough to not think – that’s usually why I end up on here writing posts (many of which never even get posted). When I have something on my mind, whether it be a tough time a friend of mine is going through, or what I’m dreading to do the next day, I can’t get it out. I can sit, stand, walk around, or lie down for hours and think endlessly. My mind wanders and this is never a good thing. I begin to think of a multitude of other things to feel down about. I always end up feeling bad for myself, as well as others. I lose confidence in myself as a friend and doubt the relationships I have.

Recently, when I’ve walked into work, I’ve acknowledged how much of a better mood I am in there. It’s like another world where I can just leave everything else behind and act joyful with customers and coworkers. When I see this in myself I wonder why I can’t always be that way. Why can’t I always be happy, ready to do whatever is needed of me. Before I go to bed I often pray, listen to Christian music, and thank God for everything he’s done in my life (he’s changed my life so much). When I do this I feel so good and confident in myself. I feel as though I can make a difference in this world and in my friends. As times have changed I’ve growing closer and closer to my move in date to college and I can hardly wait. An entire fresh start just waiting for me to take advantage of! How amazing is that. Well this post pretty much did a 360 so I’ll end it with this: Take a second out of your frustration and take in all that you have, and all of the tough times you’ve been through thus far. After looking at this the problem at hand will more than likely look like a joke, a waste of time which you could spend rejoicing in your life.

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