When I think of a girlfriend I think of someone that’s fun, someone I want to hang out with and just have a good time . Every now and then I lie in bed and think about whether my view is skewed or correct. Being seventeen I don’t really take girlfriends all that serious and I’m curious if I’m the only one. I do have a friend or two that are in serious relationships but I just don’t know if it’s worth it at such a young age. People change and move on with life so quickly that it’s hard to actually get serious when you know things are about to change.
In seven or eight months I’ll be moving off to who knows where for college (unless I happen to stay home which might happen) and I just don’t think I can put out the effort to make any new serious relationships. Often I wonder if what I’m doing is wrong. I don’t want to break someones heart near the end and have to come clean that it was all just a game. I’m not that kind of guy and I don’t want to be. So the question is: what are highschool relationships really about?
Are you looking for a friend, a romantic lover, or just a social tool to make you look good? I’m going to be honest and say I’m probably leaning on the friend/social tool sides. Seven months ago it never would have crossed my mind that I would ever be dating who I am. Things happens, she liked me, and I just went with it. Caught up in the drama I figured I’d give it a shot and now I’m wondering if that was the right decision after all. She, being a bit higher in the social food chain, surprised me with the ‘yes’ after I asked her out.
We had known each other for quite some time (same youth group) but I had never taken any time to really talk to her. I’m a flirty guy so I guess it looked as though I was head over heels for her with my flirty comments and gestures. All of my friends at school has said shes out of my league and I have to agree. She looks way too good to be going out with me and thats what hurts even more. She’s an honest, good girl but I feel as though I may have been blinded. Looks last for a few months but now I honestly have gotten to the point where I don’t really care. I hate it and now I just don’t know what to do. So really: what are high school relationships about?